21 again! haha. Thanks everyone for all the well wishes, they are very appreciated. Today’s post is one I’ve been holding on to for a while. Seeing as I’m 21 again and everything, I thought today would be the perfect day to share it. Thanks to everyone who made suggestions on how to improve it. I hope you like it as much as I do. Loads of love,
The Silent Monster
I wish it came with jingling bells,
Something, anything, so I’d be prepared when it comes
Some warning, so I don’t feel the oomph in my chest
Some warning, so my heart doesn’t beat as fast.
I wish it didn’t lure me in,
Strap my feet to the ground,
Mire me in memories,
Burdened with longing and regret.
I wish it didn’t take my breath away
Creep in, while I try to enjoy a glass of wine,
Catch me mid-speech while I’m out with friends,
Silence me in the shower, in the middle of my best Adele.
I wish it didn’t hound me with images,
Insistent that I remember, when life seemed like perfection
They say closure is an illusion,
I say nostalgia is worse.